Dodging Life’s Bullets in My Sleep: My Own Tug of War


I’ve come to realize that a lot of times, I make choices without really thinking about what they mean. It’s like I’m sleepwalking through life, just reacting to what’s happening around me and ignoring that little voice inside. This kind of evasion, even though it might feel safe, can actually lead me down a path where my dreams stay dreams, and I end up with a bunch of regrets.

The Trap of Thinking I Have No Choice:

I’ve caught myself thinking that I don’t really have a choice, that things are just the way they are because of everything going on around me. It’s a convenient story that lets me off the hook, so I don’t have to face up to the fact that, deep down, I’m making these choices without even realizing it.

Sleeping to Avoid Reality:

Sure, sleep is important, but I’ve definitely used it as a way to dodge the tough stuff – the truths I don’t want to face, the hard decisions waiting for me, the real work of making my life what I want it to be. While it’s okay to escape for a bit, if I keep doing it, I’m just standing still, missing out on chances to grow and change.

The Battle for My Attention:

My focus, habits, time – they’re all fighting for my attention. It’s so easy to get sucked into social media or other distractions, and before I know it, there’s no time left for the things I’m really passionate about.

Getting Mixed Up

  • The “I Can Be an Entrepreneur” Myth: I’ve thought about starting my own thing, but entrepreneurship needs real passion and drive. Jumping into it without that fire is a recipe for frustration.
  • Chasing Success Without Passion: If I’m not really into what I’m doing, no matter how successful it seems, it’ll just leave me feeling empty.
  • Life’s Balancing Act: Trying to keep up with work, family, and side projects is tough. I need to be honest with myself about what’s really important.
  • The Comfort of a Bad Job: It’s scary to leave a job, even a bad one, but staying can cost me a lot more in the long run – in happiness and health.
  • Debt as a Way to Dodge Reality: Racking up debt to keep up appearances just spirals into more stress. It’s better to face up to why I’m spending and look for healthier ways to live.

Waking Up

So, how do I break out of this cycle? Here’s what I’m trying:

  • Spotting My Patterns: I’m trying to be more aware of my daily habits and the excuses I make. It’s about seeing where I’m selling myself short.
  • Rethinking What Matters: I’m taking time to figure out what I really care about and making sure my choices reflect that.
  • Stepping Outside My Comfort Zone: Growth happens when I push myself, even when it’s uncomfortable.
  • Owning My Decisions: I’m learning to take responsibility for my choices and their outcomes. It’s empowering to realize I have more control than I thought.
  • Finding My Support Squad: I’m surrounding myself with people who get me and push me to go after what I want.

This journey isn’t easy, but I know it’s worth it. Choosing to live consciously and go after what I really want beats staying stuck in a comfortable but unfulfilling life. The cost of not paying attention to my choices is just too high. It’s time for me to wake up, take charge, and build a life that’s genuinely mine.

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